really bad

okay, now i feel really bad beacuse of what happened yesterday, well, last night to be exact. well, i was talking on the to my best friend and the guy i really really have a major crush on, and it was going on fine. well, i can't give you much details, but my bf likes him too, and he likes the both of us. it was going on fine and all, until i heard something that got me upset when i was supposed to be on hold but really put them on speaker. anyways, so i was really upset and felt really bad and i said i didn't want to like him anymore, and then i heard them say that the only way they could make me feel better is if my bf does something that she really didn't want to do. that just made me feel worse because he didn't want her to do it and he started feeling bad. it's a litlle (actually alot) more complicated than that but u get the point. now i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place because i'm gonna have to make the hardest decision of my high school life. to send the email or not to send the email, that is the question.......